Everything Is Made Up

I have done a lot of things with my time on this planet. At various times, I’ve sunk into a passion or a lifestyle in pretty serious ways. I’ve been a math kid, a multisport athlete, a devout Christian, a musician, a freestyle biker/blader, a rivethead, a kinkster, a hockey player, a motorcycle rider, a…

Cypher said “I know this steak doesn’t exist. I know that when I put it in my mouth, the Matrix is telling my brain that it is juicy and delicious. After nine years, you know what I realize? Ignorance is bliss.” Can we have happier lives living in simpler times, perhaps seeking simplicity more than…

If I’m being honest with myself, I have compromised my ‘self’ as I have pursued my vision of a ‘together’. I have done this with my time, my money, my energies, and my overall availability. So much of my identity and so many of my desires have been rolled up into building a life I…

Once upon a time I was a devout Christian, my first 12 adult years (age 15-27). I was strong in my faith until I wasn’t; I still believed in God but I was struggling with making it all add up. One day, towards the end of that part of my life, I asked myself if…

I am ambiamorous, but whether I’m functioning as poly or mono I like the idea of a primary/anchor relationship and actively building a life with someone. Emotions and Resources My preferred dynamic would include a primary emotional relationship with someone I can confidently build a life with.  I want to embrace the wholeness of my…

When the interpreter of all input is your brain, the reality of everything you experience is wrapped up in the stories that exist in your mind. Words have power; those spoken aloud in isolation, or to others, and the words we speak only to ourselves. Do I believe in spells, spoken words resulting in a…

I’ve spent the last four years nudging myself towards and into polyamory. There has been torturously slow growth, as well as huge leaps and bounds; there has been blood, sweat, and tears. This week I was asked to consider what polyamory actually was to me right now, to be answered with specifics rather than a…

Two years ago I was in a rough place. My marriage was over and I was living alone for the first time in five years. The pandemic was still impacting life, and I was raw from a year and a half of attempting to step into a new social and relationship identity. I was hurt,…

The first time, in love, when you lose yourself deeply in a passionate moment with your partner, when you let go and your spirit seems to be disconnected from your body, floating in a dream… The first time you do psychedelics and see the world through altered eyes and brain. The time when you up…

I have generally been a good student over the course of my life. I love learning. I enjoy picking up a book and absorbing its contents. I know a lot of things related to my experience. I know that I don’t know a lot of things as well. The things I know, I try to…